[ he should let lavi go. give him permission to leave with the information he's been given (however scant) and the favors asked (however many). but it's been a while since caelus was able to talk openly at all, even with the threat of a little self-asphyxiation as a treat. ]
I'll miss you, too.
[ looking down at his hands, the one with claws that have yet to retract, the other normal for the moment ]
I'll miss everything.
[ the selfish privilege of the condemned. to ramble when their audience can do nothing but awkwardly stand there and take it. ]
I keep hoping the Astral Express will show up any second. They'll come and save me like they always do. They wouldn't leave me to die here.
[ ... ]
But I don't think it's gonna happen. I have to do this alone.
[it might be selfish, but Lavi is the last person who’d think that — not when his job is to listen to last words and observe endings. All of this is part of the Caelus who Lavi met, and eventually be parted from regardless of what kind of parting.
He hadn’t wanted it to be like this either. He’d wanted to say goodbye and know that Caelus had gone back to his home, to his friends, and to that destiny he swore to fight. The human part of him wants that even now.]
They might just be late. They’ll miss you on this stop, but they’ll pick you up on the next. They’ve probably been searching for you all this time too.
You'd like them. Sometimes Kanda makes me think of Dan Heng, a little bit.
[ holds thumb and index finger a half inch apart. leetle ]
But he's a lot... [ .......... ] Nicer. [ there's no better word for the truth ]
When he thought I was in trouble on the Luofu, even though he was banished, he came back just to rescue us.
[ he shuts his eyes ]
Maybe you're right. In two more minutes, Dan Heng will show up and this veil can't stop him. Three more minutes, Mr. Yang will burst through and make sure my Stellaron's contained. Four more minutes, Miss Himeko will take control of the situation. Five more minutes, March will ask what's up with all the tails.
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I'll miss you, too.
[ looking down at his hands, the one with claws that have yet to retract, the other normal for the moment ]
I'll miss everything.
[ the selfish privilege of the condemned. to ramble when their audience can do nothing but awkwardly stand there and take it. ]
I keep hoping the Astral Express will show up any second. They'll come and save me like they always do. They wouldn't leave me to die here.
[ ... ]
But I don't think it's gonna happen. I have to do this alone.
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He hadn’t wanted it to be like this either. He’d wanted to say goodbye and know that Caelus had gone back to his home, to his friends, and to that destiny he swore to fight. The human part of him wants that even now.]
They might just be late. They’ll miss you on this stop, but they’ll pick you up on the next. They’ve probably been searching for you all this time too.
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[ holds thumb and index finger a half inch apart. leetle ]
But he's a lot... [ .......... ] Nicer. [ there's no better word for the truth ]
When he thought I was in trouble on the Luofu, even though he was banished, he came back just to rescue us.
[ he shuts his eyes ]
Maybe you're right. In two more minutes, Dan Heng will show up and this veil can't stop him. Three more minutes, Mr. Yang will burst through and make sure my Stellaron's contained. Four more minutes, Miss Himeko will take control of the situation. Five more minutes, March will ask what's up with all the tails.