trashprince | scawwy: pc: iwatooshi

[ his emotions shift to fondness when caelus brings those two up, though there's still a blip of confusion because he doesn't really understand what they have to do with anything here. ]

Rondo-dono reminds me very much of Imanotsurugi, but neither of them need me to take care of them. [ even imanotsurugi left him behind, and that does bring a tinge of sadness to the surface, but just as much pride. ] And I know you don't, either.

[ he crosses his arms to stare thoughtfully at the roof of the carriage for just a moment. ]

I learned recently that friendships can be very different, and I have been trying to be more mindful of that. So yes, I think you are different from the two of them, but that doesn't mean I care for you any less, Caelus-dono.

[ looks back at him. ]

Does it bother you?

No, it doesn't bother me.

[ pure fondness blossoming up. iwatooshi is always so diligent with his own feelings. caelus is an honest guy at his core, but scawwy has taught him to hold certain things closer to the chest. some smaller bits and bobs need to be treated as Big Time Secrets depending on the situation.

but there's no actual danger with iwa, is there? not for caelus.

eyes glued to the window, but he crosses his arms casually over his chest. leans back. ]

You've lived a long time. Have you ever kissed one of your friends? [ normal buddy questions ]

[ that's a pleasant feeling... the fondness. that feels more like the caelus he's grown used to, and it brings an easy smile to his face. he's always been so warm with iwatooshi. ]

I may have been created centuries ago, but I've only had this body for a few years, Caelus-dono.

[ sparkling with amusement. he's long-lived, sure, but imagine trying to kiss as an actual naginata. sounds dangerous. ]

We've sung about it sometimes in our performances, but I never have, no.

I missed that. [ the only having a human(ish) body for a few years part. another point where he feels a connection, even if their individual order of events don't quite match.

now he's looking at iwa again. ]

What do you think about when you're singing on something you've never done?

Hm, if I had to choose something... probably that I want to bring happiness to the masters who come to see us. Singing and dancing for them is fun on its own, but it's their smiles that make it truly worthwhile. I don't have to have experienced something myself to want that for others, do I?

You're so pure, Iwatooshi.

[ caelus sighs, expressing neither actual exhaustion nor melancholy. it's simple release. ]

I can't keep up with that. I like to perform for others, but I have a lot of things I want selfishly for myself.

[ back to the window whoooooa they're so high up! ]

[ we went from calling him spicy to pure in a matter of days. ]

Who said you have to? There's nothing wrong with doing something for yourself once in a while. And you already do a lot for everyone else, Caelus-dono.

[ this is a very sweet conversation but he is getting distracted by the sights now that they're a bit higher, so he's leaning to the side a bit to look out, emotions blooming into delight. ]

It's almost like being on an airplane again!

[ aaaah the power of praise, however mild. caelus does do a lot!!! he tries, anyway, which is more than he can say for some people not presently in the carriage.

a nice hum of mmmm! because he hasn't been on a plane but he's been on spaceships and a spacetrain. ]

Hey, Iwa...

[ ... ]

Do you want to try it? [ 'it' ] For your music. [ ... ]

[ he glances back, vibes still content but also a little curious. ]

For my music...? Try what, exactly?

[ coinflip agreed that iwatooshi is a dumbass. ]

[ take heart, young trailblazer. this is part of the burden of walking a path not yet trodden. ]

Do you want to try kissing me?

[ ...oh. his emotions settle into something more muted, contemplative. ]

Most of the songs we sing that involve kissing have sounded very sorrowful, and remind me of how it felt to lose my old master. They’re songs of love, regret, or yearning for someone who won’t ever return. I'm not sure that kissing you would be helpful for something like that.

[ he pauses for a moment, still thinking hard on how to answer. ]

But I’ve been told that love doesn’t have to be like that, and there is one song that I think would suit you much better.

[ softly, he sings, ]

Love is what you hold and makes you feel warm,
The kind of love that’s worth protecting and holding on to.

[ because caelus has always made iwatooshi feel warm and welcome, even when he’s being a little weirdo. it did sting to learn that caelus had kept things from him, but even then, he’d made up for it later. so iwatooshi smiles. ]

If it’s like that, I think I wouldn’t mind.

[ oh aeons oh akivili oh no caelus has fucked up. he puts his full focus into not letting loose emotional markers of absolute distress that he's made such a misstep. caelus would never try to replace iwatooshi's masters, he has zero desire to cause more regret or unmet yearning.

his hands are on his lap.

maybe he can jump out of the carriage.

and then iwatooshi steers the conversation differently and he sings, a voice caelus enjoys and has grown to trust very well. the distress dissipates. he is, however, slightly embarrassed. hehe. ]

........ You have to close your eyes.

[ bottom behavior.

there's a little bit of confusion at being told to close his eyes, but that's fine? it's fine. he trusts caelus - always has. ]

Alright, if you say so.

[ eyes closed. ]

[ nina assigned him switch take it up with the local fujoshi ]

And if you don't like it, just hit me or something.

[ normal behavior. like moving from sitting on the carriage seat to kneeling on it. gotta equalize those heights somehow.

they're at the highest point the ferris wheel will take them.

caelus leans in, tilts his head, and--if not avoided--presses his mouth gently to iwatooshi's. it's simple pressure, but warm. exciting. ]

Why would I hit you?

[ maybe that's a question for later, after aventurine teaches him to hit his friends? anyway, his eyes are closed, and he does not avoid the kiss - he just waits patiently, head inclined because he does know what this entails somehow even though he's still learning about attraction and love.

it still brings forth a little surge of surprise. so that's a kiss - soft, warm, and something he won't soon forget. not unlike the songs, after all, and that makes him radiate contentedness. he's learned something new, and caelus seems happy, so iwatooshi is happy, too. this is a feedback loop of pleasant vibes.

...but after a moment, ]

Am I allowed to open my eyes now?

[ he sounds amused but also, how long is he supposed to do this, ]

[ then it ends because he will not be sticking his tongue between shark teeth on this exact day. tempting, given the adrenaline junkie kick he's on, but it would possibly upset iwatooshi which is the opposite of the goal. let this first kiss be sweet. it sets the stage for any spicy follow-ups. ]

If you want to.

[ another peck, likely mid-eye opening. a tease before caelus sits back on his heels.

he's not going to THANK iwatooshi for a kiss, but he is quite happy. appreciative. ]

I think I like the big wheel after all.

[ another flash of surprise as the second kiss catches him off guard - but he's not mad about it, just amused. ]

So this is the "rush" you were looking for? [ a little bit of concern slips back through, though iwa's still trying to hold that back. don't want to bring down his mood too much. ] Does it feel real?

[ why is it even more embarrassing when iwatooshi puts it that way?? like, it's definitely what caelus himself insinuated. but that pinprick of concern! ]

Sure does. My heart is thumping hard.

[ patpats his own chest. ]

You can't hear it?

[ eh, it's his heart or the stellaron but either way it is beating quick ]

[ hmmm. he reaches out to touch caelus's chest, right above his heart.

...! ]

So it is! Gahaha! Good, good. I'm glad. You feel very real to me, too, you know.

[ happy vibes! and a little relieved, too, the concern dropping away for now. ]

scawwy: pc: iwatooshi

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