trashprince | scawwy: pc: iwatooshi

[ this is... not the response he expected. he's not sure what to do with it all, so for a moment, he just stares blankly. ]

...I like you, too, Caelus-dono. [ leaves the style thing out because he's not even a hundred percent sure what that means. ] But that has nothing to do with this Stellaron. Why would that change my opinion of you? Even if you did hold back, I'm in no position to judge you for it.

[ iwatooshi kind of did the same with imanotsurugi. holding it against caelus would only make him a hypocrite. ]

'Cause I was made for the Stellaron, but that's not who I am.

[ he refuses it. may not have been completely sure of it before, but for now, after what he's been through, it has to be the belief he holds to. the stellaron lives inside of him, but it isn't caelus. ]

I just wanted to stop thinking about it so much. The memory sharing kept throwing it in my face, but it didn't make you see it...

[ and it was a relief. ]

Let me be sorry.

[ "made for the stellaron." iwatooshi still doesn't understand just what a stellaron is - only that it's dangerous. but even then... ]

I was made to kill, Caelus-dono, and I have taken the lives of countless warriors without regret. That never changed your opinion of me, did it? Your nature, whatever it is, won't change mine, either.

And even if it would, I've been told countless times in recent weeks that we're more than what we're made to be - even as tools of destruction.

[ "are we weapons, or are we human?" the age-old question echoes in his mind even now.

but - ah, this isn't what he wanted, to make a friend feel this way so soon after seeing him again. maybe he shouldn't have asked. if caelus didn't want to tell him, if he didn't want to think about it... iwatooshi should have left it at that, as something he wasn't meant to know at all. so he bows his head in apology. ]

I'm sorry for bringing it up. You've suffered more than enough already.

[ 'Let me be sorry.' 'I'm sorry for bringing it up.'

this isn't exactly the reunion he envisioned. but he's always heard iwatooshi out before and he's doing the same now. from early on, he saw that string of numbers in ink on iwatooshi's skin, admitting the vast amount of lives he'd taken. some amount too high for a single trailblazer to comprehend.

but he doesn't judge people for the circumstances of their existence. it's always, always what they do about it afterward. ]

... I'm telling you I wish I had been more honest. I held back so you'd like me more and we both know now that wasn't necessary. Stop acting like you did something wrong.

[ reaching to set a hand on iwatooshi's chest. if there's any not bare part, anyway. because now is not the time for raw tiddy touching. ]

From now on, if there's anything you want to know about me, just ask. I'll tell you the truth, no games.

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[ he may be wearing a regular old kimono but his tits aren't all the way out, only peeking. ]

I'm not in a position to judge your honesty, Caelus-dono.

[ knowing that he'd done something similar with imanotsurugi, iwatooshi refuses to hold it against him, even if it hurt a little to learn secondhand. it does look for a moment that he wants to say something more, but ultimately, iwa only nods. ]

I will, and you're welcome to do the same. [ not that iwatooshi really has a lot of secrets, anyway. ] But not now. You've only just arrived, and I wanted to make you feel welcome.

[ instead they got... whatever this is. ]

I feel welcome.

[ debating something, too. it's not words, though. ]

I think I know why this feels off.

[ and he gives him the biggest fucking hug. screw the height difference, he is using full tb (the good one) strength and willpower. ]

Hello again, Iwatooshi. I'm glad we're together once more.

[ iwatooshi's about to start feeling guilty again for not being more welcoming - not being the spot of brightness he's been told that others needed him to be.

but then caelus is hugging him, and iwatooshi wraps his arms around the other's shoulders like it's second nature. ]

...If only it were under different circumstances. [ no, enough of that. he smiles down at caelus. ] But I'm glad to see you again, too. I've missed you.

[ the sun is but one star in the sky. iwatooshi shines brilliantly, but he doesn't need to shine alone. ]

Same here, same here.

Oh, right. I haven't had a chance yet today.

[ and bites him!! is iwatooshi feeling better now? ]

[ a

well, that's fine. he won't bite back because shark teefs. ]

...For the rule? Has no one told you those aren't for us?

[ coward ]

If that's in the notebook, I haven't read it all, yet. Oops.

[ he bit someone earlier this week just for funsies but he's not excited to draw blood when he's already made this reunion weird as hell

he laughs a little, though. ]

It's alright, you have time. [ ... ] You did seem to enjoy biting the others.

[ freak ]

Most of that was the monster leaking out.

[ 'I'm trying to tell you I'm a monster. I'm trapped. I need you to stop me.'

everyone thinks it's regular caelus freak behavior ]

I see. I didn't feel anything like that in the weeks I was afflicted.

[ then again it was affection week and memshare and those are harder to work with. he's already a big teddy bear even without affection week. ]

I did still try to follow "the puppy says" rule to honor Pickles-dono, though...

[ affection week with iwatooshi... better, simpler times. wah. then again, caelus doesn't need that push, either. see the fact they are likely remaining in a hug for the moment ]

I think you were the only one after what happened with Ishtar. I could have been more dedicated, but at a certain point, others were taking it the wrong way.

[ was it simpler... he was still possessed back then. but yea he'll hold onto caelus for as long as cae wants, that's fine. ]

Anisphia-dono tried, too... at least when I was speaking with her. I'm sure it was much harder come Friday morning.

[ yeah don't remind me caelus was acting like an idiot all 'yay iwa and i are on the same page together forever' ]

It was one of the worst days here.

[ and caelus' last few have been rotten. ]

But thanks. You were always trying. I knew you were.

[ releases iwatooshi at last. ]

[ maybe they were! at least the iwatooshi that was still himself, sometimes? who's to say. ]

There aren't so many good days in this place, are there? So we have to treasure the ones we get even more while we can.

[ be free little raccoon. ]

I think you have more faith in me than I deserved.

[ scampers! no. well. not yet. they're talking. ]

I'm reflecting back the belief you seemed to put in me. You've always been honest--as much as you could. And you always made an effort. It'd be wrong not to see that. You're allowed to get praised, too, Iwatooshi!

[ reaching, reaching, and possibly gesturing for the sword to bend down so he can give him the much anticipated head pat ]

It's hard not to believe in someone who promises to deliver a letter across all of existence.

[ does not bend down. in fact, iwatooshi turns away, right hand flexing as if reaching for something. ]

I haven't done anything that the others haven't.

[ a blank moment. it passes quick. he knows iwatooshi too well to think that was a direct jab.

he'll still be delivering that letter, thank you. it's on his active mission list.

then iwatooshi turns away and there's an item that should be in his hand. ]

... What happened to your other self?

[ grabs you both by the throat stop doing things that iwatooshi won't ask about

he'll just shake out that hand like it's nothing. ]

I left it at the apartments. It's fine.

[ just occasionally something happens and makes him wish he hadn't, that's all. ]

[ get smarter. ]

Why did you leave it?

[ pretty sure he hasn't seen the naginata since arriving in the gy, has he? ]

[ HE SIMPLY CANNOT HE'S SO STUPID. LIKE A CAT WHO RUNS INTO WALLS. ]

I didn't want to scare the animals. We were watching from the cat store.

[ that's one of his charm points ]

So, there you were again, thinking of others.

[ crossing arms over his chest. ]

Wanna show me the apartments?

I know by now that I scare animals with or without my weapon.

...Alright. You'll have to pick up your key soon, anyway, unless you plan to sleep elsewhere.

scawwy: pc: iwatooshi

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